The Difference Between Travel & Vacation

IMG_9444“Do you know what one of the greatest things is about coming back from a trip like that?” I asked Sophie on our drive to go back-to-school shopping at Target, “It’s that being back home makes you realize how everything is just so…”

“Easy!” She interrupted, finishing my sentence.

Yes! A couple days earlier we had arrived home from three and a half weeks backpacking around Europe and there we were sitting in our air conditioned car on our way to a store that had anything and everything we could ever want, with displays and signage in a language we could read.

It was one of the unexpected lessons that my girls got to learn from this trip… appreciating home and all its comforts. Making our way, mostly by train, through five countries in the peak of a summer heatwave was not like any other vacation my daughters had ever experienced. It was hot and humid, uncomfortable and unpredictable. It wasn’t Disneyland or a cruise down the coast of Mexico (which was an incredible trip they got to experience earlier this year). It wasn’t even like camping. It was way more adventurous!

One of the things I found myself repeating to the girls over an over again, every time they complained that their backpacks were heavy, that the city streets smelled of trash and urine, when they were annoyed that they couldn’t understand what I was saying in Italian or French, that they were tired of walking all day and then having to run to catch a train was “you have to realize there is a difference between vacation and travel.”

At the time, I didn’t exactly know what I meant by that, but it is clear to me now.

VACATION IS…

Vacation is relaxing and having fun. It’s about a week-long getaway, where ideally you have no stress and easy access to all of life’s comforts: yummy food and drinks (unlimited amounts of them if you are at an all-inclusive resort or on a cruise), air conditioning, comfy beds, and lots of opportunities for fun whether it be a beach and snorkeling, or a theme park followed by a dip in the pool.

I feel the need to take a moment and note that if you’re vacationing with young children, you might have fun but you’re likely not going to be able to relax. According to other bloggers out there this defines the difference between a vacation and a trip. Since that has already been covered (here’s a fun article on HuffPost) and since my kids, at the ages of 7 and 10, no longer fall in the ‘traveling-with-young-children’ category (yay!), I am more interested in tackling the definition of travel.

TRAVEL IS…

• Travel is having cultural experiences: tasting new foods; hearing and speaking different languages; seeing ever-changing, and at times, breath-taking landscapes and amazing architecture; learning about art, history, religion. Being open to how other people live. Lucy has decided she wants to learn Italian, move to Italy and eat lasagna and gelato for every meal. I’m in!

• Travel is being in the present moment, being spontaneous and curious, losing track of what day it is, being open to serendipity and the kindness of strangers… living the true wander and wonder way of life.

• Travel is being hyper focused on taking care of your basic needs: eating, finding a place to sleep and knowing how to say “Where is the bathroom?” in five different languages. Sophie would argue it is equally important to know how to to say “Can I pet your dog?” in all these languages too… early in the trip, she downloaded Google Translate to my phone for this specific purpose.

• Travel is learning who you are and when you’re traveling with family, learning who they are. Scott and I discovered that we have complete opposite ways of exploring new cities. He wants to know and wants to go. He wants to learn the history of a place and he walks with a destination in mind. I, on the other hand, like to wander and wonder (duh, no surprise there)… I like to move slowly and pay attention to the details along the way and generally I let my feet take me where they want to go without any specific destination. I always have a map so I know where I am but I leave myself open to finding secret corners and magical moments. Let it be known that I do have a mission when I’m on these walkabouts – capturing amazing photographs. Traveling, to me, is also about storytelling and my favorite way to do that is through my photography.

We quickly learned that the girls were most interested in souvenir shopping and trying every possible gelato flavor.

• Travel is about gaining new perspectives, whether it be opening your mind to how other people live or coming back home and having a sudden appreciation for the things you used to take for granted.

• Travel is work. It is not easy. And it’s important to take a break!

One of the big lessons I learned from this trip is that you need to sprinkle in a little vacation when you’re traveling… especially when you’re traveling with kids! They desperately needed the time on the beach, fun in the pool and time spent with other kids.

I know our family learned a lot from this trip especially the girls who had never really ‘traveled’ before, but if I’m being completely honest, if I were going to do the same trip all over again, I’d add a little more vacation into our travel.

A Love Affair: Making of My World Map of Tiny Treasures

As an artist, I am constantly having to conquer my fears. Over and over and over again. I love it. I think that’s why I have chosen to make art the way that I do… sort of backwards. Most artists that I meet have become masters of their materials and often of their subjects too. One may do landscapes in oils while the other does abstracts in acrylics… and that is what they have done for years. They become intimate with their art, exploring all the intricacies of the medium, color, light, form, composition. The artwork is expertly executed because they have spent a lot of time getting to know one another – the art and the artist. They have this beautiful committed relationship.

The way I approach my art is a little more like my days of traveling the world in my twenties, when I would find a new lover in each place that I visited. There was passion, excitement, exploration and fear. I’d find someone new, get to know the city or country through his eyes and before we got too comfortable, it was time for me to move on. It may sound shallow but it didn’t feel like it. It was scary and fun and made us feel alive. These are the same feelings I seek with each new map that I create, that’s why I am always using new materials. But let me tell you, it can be super scary at times. I almost always experience a moment where I am totally and utterly paralyzed. Like when I spotted that cute guy on the piazza in Rome and had to decide whether to make eye contact or not.

I experienced this with my Tiny Treasures map. It took me a year to finally finish this thing. Why? A fear of commitment, a fear of the unknown and the perfectionist in me fearing that it wasn’t going to be good enough.

Many of these tiny treasures were saved as far back as my childhood (read all about the story behind this map in a previous post). I knew I wanted to glue them down, but to what and with what kind of glue? Many of these objects were the most fragile things imaginable, like dragonfly wings and quail eggs. How was I going to preserve them and make them into archival art. What was the end product going to look like? I had no idea so I just did nothing.

I have learned that the best way to conquer fear is to take tiny steps. Action cures fear. One step at a time. So I placed the tiny treasures on a white background (in the shape of a world map, of course). And I photographed it that way knowing it would look amazing as an image printed on canvas. It stayed that way, untouched, for months.

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Then last summer, our family visited the Museum of Natural History in New York City and I saw this wall in the photograph below. That was it! Inspiration hit. I had made eye contact.

 

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I was going to glue my tiny treasures to a huge piece of plexiglass and then pour a thick layer of resin over the entire thing, giving the illusion that the continents were submerged in an ocean of fluid liquid. The piece would be framed and hang on a wall, the transparent background allowing for shadows of each treasure to be seen on the wall behind, encouraging the viewer to look closely, explore and wonder how it’s all put together.

I came back from our trip and did absolutely nothing. Where do you get plexiglass? What kind of glue should I use? How do you work with resin? What if I screw the whole thing up?!

Four months later, I joined the Foothills Art Center Open Studio group and the first project I brought with me was this one. I brought the plexiglass (turns out you can buy it at Home Depot), a glue gun, glue sticks and my treasures. Within three hours I had everything glued down. All the other artists, many of whom had been meeting every Friday for the past 15 years, were kind, welcoming, curious and supportive. I knew immediately I wanted in with this amazing community.

Since that day in November, I have made it a point to join my new friends at Foothills every Friday from 10-2. They teach me, they inspire me, they give me life advice and we’ve even gone on a couple fun field trips together – to the Degas exhibit at Denver Art Museum and more recently to see a play called Sunday in the Park with George, about French pointillist artist, George Seurat.

But still… my piece sat around unfinished for another four months. I couldn’t make the next move.

Our upcoming Foothills Open Studio show (opening reception is this Friday, May 11) is what finally motivated me to finish my piece. I couldn’t hold back any longer. I made a move. I bought $250 of Art Resin, I mixed it, I poured it, I heated it, I let it harden and I did that over again three or four times to get the ideal thickness. I worked with my carpenter to build a custom frame out of beetle kill pine – the artwork made that move, told me it was what it needed. I’m going to say it without shame, but the last year and especially the last few weeks of working with this piece of art has been as passionate and exciting as any love affair I had back in my twenties. And the beauty of it is, I think this is the start of a wonderful new relationship. Art Resin and I got to know each other, intimately. We are going to make beautiful things together. I just know it.

World Map of Tiny Treasures at Foothills Art Center
I dropped off my finished artwork yesterday before any the rest of the show was hung. Stay tuned for up-close images (this is a tough one to photograph and I didn’t have my good camera with me).
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Here I am peeling off the protective plastic on the back of the plexiglass. Eventually this piece will hang on a wall in my house but for this show it made sense to display it this way because I didn’t want to take away wall space from the other Open Studio artists.

 

The Story : World Map of Tiny Treasures

Remember being a kid and finding a baby blue broken eggshell beneath a tree in your backyard. Remember the story it told of a life growing inside it. The image of a tiny bird pecking its way out, then nestled and squished beside its siblings, mouth agape waiting for a worm from mama bird. Days or weeks later that same baby bird flittering atop a branch, listening to chirps and squawks from both mom and dad encouraging it to fledge. Fly. Be free. Baby bird apprehensive and scared but then doing it, going for it! I was going to call it courage, but really it’s just trust. Trusting that nature knows what is and isn’t possible. Trust in what you are meant to do. Trust in your calling.

You would pick up the eggshell with the utmost care, bring it inside and put it safely on a shelf in your room, where it would be kept company by your collection of rocks, sticks and other tiny treasures.

What’s the story behind a smooth piece of sea glass found washed up on shore or a tiny snail-like fossil? An arrowhead, a geode, a feather, a snake’s skin, a wasp’s nest? Each one filled with beauty and a sense of wonder. 

My kids say I’m no fun. I don’t know how to play. They’re right. As a grown up I don’t love pretending I’m a dragon, I don’t enjoy tickle-fests (all that squealing, ugh) and I leave the fort-building to the kids. But I will argue, that being an artist has allowed me to stay in touch with my inner-child by focusing on the beauty that surrounds me, by being in the present moment, by finding amazement in nature’s treasures.

This project in particular allowed me to connect with my kids because we did it together. We went treasure-hunting. We collected. We filled the ‘Nature Box’ that hung in our kitchen for two, three years. I knew all along I would make a map out of all our findings. I wasn’t sure how but I knew they would all end up immortalized in a work of art.

You know what the craziest thing is? There are pieces in this map that I collected when I was my daughters’ ages – tiny ceramic mice, itty bitty sea shells saved in a vile that I found with my cousin on the beach in France when the tide was low… when I was five years old. There are beads from when I worked with my best friends in a jewelry store as a teenager; sea glass I found with those same friends, growing up on the island of Martha’s Vineyard. And pieces I collected in my 20s when I traveled the world – seashells from Fiji and a little brass Ganesha from India. The fact is, there are hundreds of tiny treasures in this piece and they each have a story.

I thought this work of art was a tribute to wandering, wondering and the joy of collecting. I thought it was an excuse to do something fun with my daughters, even if it isn’t their definition of ‘fun’. I didn’t know it would turn out to be a portrait of my life. Isn’t that the beauty of art – finding the unexpected, telling stories you didn’t know you intended to tell – the big treasure among the tiny ones. 

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Every Person Has A Story

every_one_has_a_storyLook what Lucy’s 2nd grade class, the Mitchell Elementary School librarians and I created in just one week! When the librarians learned that I am an artist who creates world maps, they asked me if I would be interested in working with the second graders who were doing a unit on recycling, to create a map out of outdated text books. I jumped at the opportunity and suggested we attempt to get it done before Multicultural Night in mid-April (our initial meeting was in mid-March and we had to schedule around spring break). Amazingly, we did it!

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Up-cycled Text Book World Map: The Making Of

Over the course of a week, I visited with Lucy’s class for an hour on Monday, Wednesday and Friday. By Friday I had the finished piece sent off to be framed!

On Monday, the kids, teachers and I tore all our favorite images and words out of about 20 books. These were text books for young elementary readers filled with rich material and beautiful imagery with titles like Don’t Forget to FlySing It to the Sea, and Window to the Sky – not at all what you imagine when you think back to the text books we had in high school.

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Back at home, I went through all the torn images – there was a plethora of subject matter: animals, plants, planets, dinosaurs, landscapes, people. When I make my maps I like to focus on messages of diversity, inclusivity, and unity among humans – acknowledging our differences and celebrating them! Remember that’s why I never include political boundaries. For that reason, I decided it made sense for our final work of art to focus on images of people. The 4-foot piece would hang in the library, be titled Every Person Has a Story, and would be dedicated to the kids’ amazing teacher, Mrs. Kirlin, who is retiring this year.

On Wednesday we spent an hour gluing in the library – some kids worked on words, the others on images. Back at home, I used my big map template to cut out the continents and glued them onto the background. I Modge Podged the whole thing and on Friday we just hung the finished piece up in the library and talked about what we learned.

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What the Kids Learned

• Recycling helps save our planet and up-cycling is a great way to make art!

• You can accomplish SO much when you work as a team. Mrs. Kirlin helped them do the math and we figured out that what they accomplished in 2 hours would have taken me, an artist on her own, 48 hours (or more)!

• There are lots of different people who live on this planet – we may look different, eat different foods, make different music and tell different stories, but we all have the same desires: to feel safe, to be loved and accepted, to learn and to grow.

• When they see the final piece framed and hanging in the library I hope they get a sense of accomplishment and pride from getting to share their hard work with the world. Perhaps there’s a budding artist or two among them who has been left with the inspiration to grow up and make this world a more beautiful place.

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What I Learned

• A paradox: working with children is exhausting and invigorating at the same time.

• There is satisfaction in getting my message of world peace and acceptance across to a group of school children whose minds are open to learning and willing to listen. However much I hope that my art can help towards making positive change in this world, I know that there are grown-ups out there who will never get it.

• I am so grateful that I had the opportunity to give back, in my own special way, to this amazing school that is working so hard to build a strong educational foundation for both my daughters!

• I have said it before and I will say it again, but Sophie and Lucy really do have a love/hate relationship with my art. Sometimes I think they see it as a third child that they have to compete with for my attention. But they also understand the joy of making and being creative and I can tell that there are moments when they feel proud of what I do. It was so AMAZING to include Lucy and her classmates in the process of making this piece. Although, I did put my signature on it (just to make if feel like a piece of Fine Art), the piece isn’t mine at all… it’s theirs.

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100Days100Maps : Looking Back

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Why Make 100 World Maps in 100 Days?

• Fear of procrastination/laziness – knowing I need accountability to get things done. (Ala Gretchen Rubin’s 4 tendencies – I am an obliger) and I knew social media could help me with this.

• Fear that freelance opportunities and Athena Project volunteer work would take precedence over making my maps – that’s not why I quit my job. I quit my job to be an artist and I was afraid it would end up on the bottom of my priority list.

• For years my mind was overflowing with map ideas but I just didn’t have the time, suddenly I did and I wanted to hurry up and get those ideas out… to make room for others, maybe better ones.

• I wanted to LET GO. My maps in the past took so much time and were detailed and precise. That was great but I wanted this adventure to allow me to let loose, let go, get messy, experiment.

What I Learned

• It felt really good to produce so much even if I didn’t love every one

• I learned that people have different tastes – some of the maps that I liked least were the ones that others liked most. I always enjoyed the process of making my maps so it’s good to accept that the final product doesn’t really matter – someone might love it. Just do the work and enjoy the process. There is a higher power at work here. It isn’t just about me and my preferences. The artist as a vessel (I’ll have to explore this in a future blog). Once the art is made, it isn’t mine anymore. I make art for others.

• I learned that my favorite maps to make are those that use organic materials. Their shapes generally lend themselves to the shapes of the continents (like flowers, leaves, sticks, rocks and food items). And it made me feel earthy, connected. That’s hard to describe but I loved the feeling. I was channeling my inner Andy Goldsworthy (if you don’t know of him, look him up – what he creates with nature is incredible).

• I was also surprised at how much I enjoyed sitting at the computer and doing digital maps. I never did them before because I spent so many hours in front of the computer when I was working as a web/graphic designer and when I got home I just wanted to use my hands. Now, I was happy to have an excuse to sit and use the software I know so well, with which I feel I can make magic happen.

• I still feel like I have to explore paint. I did some nice watercolors but I have much more to do when it comes to paint. I thought I would paint more but I have a block, a fear… I’m scared it’s going to be bad. I hope now that I will purchase a few canvases and I will paint and no one says I have to show it to anyone. Just keep working it until I feel happy with it. Maybe add in bits of pieces of collage – call it mixed media instead of just paint. That seems more up my alley.

• I did feel good when I made a map that had more of an activist message. Like finding the message that I purposefully don’t add political boundaries in my maps because it’s important to me that I get across that we are humans sharing this planet with cultural differences but a common tie as humans (gotta work on that messaging). Also the rice map about world hunger or the handprint map about peace. There’s an activist in me and since I don’t feel comfortable talking politics, I really could use my art to make statements. I should explore that more. I think I’m stopping myself because of my rebelling against the intellectualism I experienced in college which just annoyed me. But the truth is, last years elections were what motivated me to get my art out there. I felt the world needed my art, not just for the beauty but there are deeper messages there and it’s not just about the fact that travel is fun. It’s about what we learn through travel – to be open-minded, accepting of other cultures, to connect and to be present.

• I will never be at a loss of ideas. I still feel like I have so many more and not enough time. That is a good thing.

• I am eager to spend more time on one map now that I am not doing them daily. I’m excited to focus on quality rather than quantity. Next I want to work on 10-15 maps that I would be happy to hang in my house and that in a year or two I hang as a solo art show.

Monthly Gratitude Pages

A few years ago, I started the practice of writing a page at the end of every month, listing all the things for which I am grateful. I tried keeping a gratitude journal and writing three things every day before going to bed – but that only lasted about three days. Too much commitment. It turns out once a month is perfect!

I’m not going to share my monthly pages with you in this blog as I imagine that would bore you terribly, but I thought it would be fun to share a sample of one here. I will tell you though… that this is one of my favorite practices because I am always amazed at how positive and energized I feel after doing it. It is especially magical when I force myself to do it when I’m feeling angry, frustrated or depressed. It only takes about 10 minutes and it always manages to change my mood.

This month was easy since I’m so grateful for my new life…

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Monthly gratitude page – YAY! Of course I am grateful for this new life… as an artist, mom and wife. Hiker and photographer too. I am grateful for having less stress personally and for our family. At least for now, rushing doesn’t exist in our lives. I love that. I am grateful for my commitment to my 100 day challenges and for social media being there for accountability, as a commitment device. I am grateful for all the wonderful women with whom I have enjoyed one-on-one time recently: Teka, Brittney, Julie, Lori, Kristin, Wendi, Jessica, Jamie and for all the women in the Athena Project. I am grateful for all the gorgeous hikes that I can literally walk to form my front door. I am grateful for all the fruits and vegetables I can buy in abundance. I was grateful that our trip to the East Coast was successful – the lake in Pennsylvania was beautiful, the Glover family filled with fun, kind, caring and smart people. Despite the heat and humidity of New York City we made great memories. I am grateful for the girls enjoyment of the Golden History Camp and for the quiet home while they are there. I’m grateful that Peanut gets to be home with me all day (instead of in the laundry room). I am grateful for my new camera and laptop. I am grateful for bountiful creative ideas on what my next map is going to be made of. I am grateful that I got the Athena logo to a place where I’m proud of it. I’m grateful for Trevor Noah’s audiobook that was moving, entertaining and educational. I am grateful for Lucy learning to ride a bike! I am grateful for our new neighbors who seem really cool. I am grateful for all the artsy mentors I’ve had over the last few months. I’m not sure I could be any more grateful than I am right now. I forgot to mention that I am grateful I got to see Michelle Obama!

Contemplating the start of 100 Maps & 100 Hikes in 100 Days

I feel a push and pull to clean up the house and be productive or to just relax, be alone, be introspective, meditate. Relish in some peace and quiet.

The girls still need me, want me. Sophie is okay enjoying being back in her room after two weeks away but Lucy’s room is a mess and she’s whining that I should help her clean it up. I have my own art studio that needs cleaning, a mess because I dropped boxes there packed with all the crap from my office at the Zoo. In a week, it will have been a month since I left the Zoo. Crazy. Time to clean up and move on. But I don’t have the motivation. I know Scott is in the basement enjoying time to himself and I know I need that too.

And then I’m also faced with the strangest feeling that I have all the time in the world… ahead of me… without a job to drive to on Monday or a trip to prepare and pack for. Just this open-ended schedule filled with freedom. I’m going to do my best to embrace this feeling but for now it’s just very, very strange. Scarey? Maybe. The only thing I fear is laziness. As long as I create structure for myself that won’t happen.

Also, I need to work hard if I’m going to be successful. And I think what I need to do is define what success is. I’m starting to day dream about this new artsy lifestyle allowing me to travel – either on my own here and there in search of inspiration, as a family which will be limited because of Scott’s vacation time, or just me and the girls. I’m not talking about our world trip plans in a couple years – I’m talking about here and now, and in the next few years leading up to the trip. I want my art to support those dreams… that’s success to me. Right now it can only be dreams because we can’t afford that vagabond lifestyle. I need to be conscientious of our household budget. But if I make maps and if they start selling, one way or another, that could allow travel back in my life. That’s the whole point of this new freedom. I feel thirsty for adventure.

This IS a whole new adventure. I also feel overwhelmed by possibilities and by the open-endedness of it all. I am afraid that it might paralyze me. What a strange feeling.

Right now I deserve the quiet. It took every ounce of patience to spend just 3 days as a family in New York City in the peak of the summer heat and humidity. I am drained. I need to reset and get reenergized.

I know I’m putting a lot on myself but I am also so, so eager to get healthy again. To eat well, get fit, get outdoors, exercise daily. Do it. I know everything will become so much more clear once I do that.

I also wonder about doing the Artist’s Way again for some guidance and structure.

Or starting my 100 days of making 100 maps. Combine that with 100 days of no drinking and 100 hundred days of hiking (or 100 days of 10,000 steps). Hmmm, I just looked up that if I started on July 25, 2017 and did it for 100 days straight that would take me to November 1, 2017 right before my 41st birthday. Talk about a kickstart to this new life as an artist!

Should I do it? I have 3 days to decide. I love the idea of being so disciplined, of using this is as accountability to not be lazy and having complete faith that this 100 days project will lead to something! Something big.

It could work because we don’t have any big plans to go away between now and then. Commitment.